Friday, January 25, 2008
I did a inmatured thing last night.
Took 20 I-don't-know-what-tablets yesterday.
And got myself so so drowsy,
with big swollen eyes.

I didn't know how to vent my anger how.
I didn't know how to pour my unhappiness to others.
So I did such foolish stuff to stop the pain for that very moment.

I came so far,
tried so hard to be firm and stand by my two feets,
but nobody seems to be supporting me.
Everyone is telling me that I changed,
and dislike me for who I am now.
Just because the soft-hearted-michelle can no longer be seen.

First xin drifted apart from me then lin.
Friends that I care & cherish most,
that I want to be there for them.

I started to be independent,
to have my own principles in life.
Thinking that I only live once, so I want to live it happily.
Trying to bury my memories, my upset, my past,
looking forward to everyday.

They thought I couldn't compromise,
not putting myself in their shoes.
Then who's gonna put in mine?
When I'm here struggling and fixing my life?

My parents didn't trust me.
I worked so hard,
study so hard.
Being able to juggle between work and studies ain't easy.
But they never once praise me.
But compare me with my brother.
Just because my brother spend more time at home then me.

My grades are far better,
My intelligent is higher,
I see the world in a bigger piece,
I know what's good what'd bad for me.
I support myself,
don't take money from my parents,
instead, I even purchase things for them,
just to put a smile on their face.

It seems like being independent is a crime.
It is not easy to be myself.
It's difficult to be someone people want, people love.
Cause not all gonna appreciate your life.

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